I Hope You'll Be Missing Me (Like I Will Miss You)

You helped them to kill me
that's all that I'm willing to say
You no longer thrill me
all you do now is stand in my way
And all they say, makes me feel just as safe
I have lost everything that I own
All they say makes me awfully blue and alone

I wrote us a song,
you weren't singing along
But I hope you'll be missing me too
I held on to long, and did everything wrong
But I hope you'll be missing me, like I will miss you

I wont say I've moved on
I wont say I'm close to okey
or that you no longer thrill me,
or no longer stand in my way

I'm not to proud to admit to you now
that I'm still nothing more than a wreck
and I do intend, not to pretend 'til the end

I wrote us a song,
you weren't singing along
But I hope you'll be missing me too,
I held on to long and did everything wrong
But I hope you'll be missing me, like I will miss you

I hope you'll be missing me like I will miss you

One Day At A Time

"And I die
One day at a time
'Cause I just can't seem to get you off my mind
No matter how I try
try to kill the time
well I think that I'm just going crazy
one day at a time"

Turned 16, it wasn't so sweet

My 16th birthday was yesterday. Supposed to be the best birthday for teenagers. But for me... it was just... depressing.

This year my mom was diagnosed with Stage 4 Breast Cancer... not good.
A few months ago we found out that we didn't have any income towards the household. Other than my moms disability checks... not good.
A few weeks ago my grades began falling into barely passing... not good.
A week ago I fell in soccer and tore up my leg on the same place were I had MRSA last yearr... not good.
Now, as I birthday present... my new status is "single"... sucks.

I guess I should suck it up. In the end, all things will turn out right. I mean look at it this way, things can't get any worse.

lyrics from various genres

"Just when I had you off my head
Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed.
You say you wanna try again
But I've tried everything but giving in.
Why you wanna break my heart again?
Why am I gonna let you try?
When all we ever do is say goodbye."
~All We Ever Do is Say Goodbye, by John Mayer

"Maybe I won't be afraid to love somebody new
Maybe I can open up my heart
Then I won't drown in my own tears
Drown in my own tears
There's a place where we used to meet
everyday
And a time when we used to love
every way
All that's left is the pieces
of a broken heart
And a house where nobody lives
since we're apart"
~Drown in My Own Tears, by The Smithereens


"I dont want just anyone to hold. I dont want my love to go to waste. I want you and your beautiful soul."
~ Beautiful Soul, by Jessie McCartney

"My state of mind has finally
got the best of me
I need you next to me
I'll try to find a way that I
can get to you
Just wanna get to you
The world I see is perfect now,
you're all around
With you I can breathe
Until you're mine, I have to find
A way to fill this hole inside
I can't survive without you here
by my side
Until you're mine, not gonna be
Even close to complete
I won't rest until you're mine
Mine...
Alone inside, I can only hear
your voice
Ringing through the noise
Can't find my mind, keeps on
coming back to you
Always back to you
Wanted something out of reach
It's killing me, you're all i see, yeah"
~Until You're Mine, by Demi Lovato

I Guess Now I'll "Blog"

so a recent turn in events has led me to want to let loose some emotions or what not... and a rather, nonchalant way. so i guess what i'll be doing is just scribbling out random thoughts of mine.

yup thats all.